beautiful nightmare

the magic number three

i've been asked a couple of times

what's so special about him?

the words that comes right out of my mouth is

i don't know

at the same time

my heart whispers

how can i possibly answer that question?

while my mind runs around in circles

gathering adjectives;

trying its best to put together a sentence

that is worth saying its you

it was your voice that made me turn to look at you for the first time

i stutter in speech as i tried to reply you

i was confused as to what power you had used on me

when i finally realised that it was just your chocolate brown eyes

so rare, so deep, so warm

that i didn't mind being captured by the pair of them at all

then came your crooked smile

that just blows me away every single time

with not minding what magic you had

i just followed your every step

it was horror having to face you since then

what with the little black butterflies fluttering about in my stomach

i hate that you had such a great effect on me

and i hate the fact that everything was fine until you came along

still i look forward to school everyday

wondering if you'll be there sitting in front of me during english

looking out for you at the other corner of mother tongue class

and peeping at you through the crowd across the canteen tables

everytime our eyes met

it felt intense

but everytime we do

something hit me

i'm not what he's looking for

and i'm not what he wants

why would he like me?

i'm just this klutz

and that's when i'll look away

feeling dumb

who knew things will turn out to be this way?

i didn't

who knew this could've happened?

i didn't

but i'm glad

for everything that took place

amidst of all the mountains we have been going through

we're still in tact

and the best part is

we're going through it together

it doesn't matter

near or far

Happy Anniversary, dear

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white flag

when it is the time i need you most

we're like this

i don't know how much longer

i can keep running

this drama called Life

i think it's too much

especially when this episode

is always on repeat

it's been a week for us

and it's been three days for them

i may be dumb but

i'm not stupid

please

i need you

16 days left.

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i'll cut it out

this is stupid. i'm not stupid.

i can't do this.

i may be dumb but i'm not stupid.

i'm dumb to leave the engine running

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happy 48th beloved

HAPPY 48TH BIRTHDAY IBU!

no words can describe how much i love you.
and no words can describe how lucky i am to have a mother like you.

you're my inspiration.
you're my strength.
apart from being the best mother,
you're also my bestfriend.

you're my everything.

Nana sayang Ibu.

love, irna.

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half moon

there wasn't any stars in the sky tonight-

I MISS YOU

love you.

love, irna.

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dilemma

RED CAMP 6 ROCKS HARD

had looooads of fun with this bunch of people on top. of course, not forgetting danial, cindy & ariff.also, all the friends we've made there. it has been one awesome experience.

yesterday, we had a short outing. sara, farhan, dewi, ifah and myself. went to toa payoh to catch a movie. woke up with a msg & a missed call from bestie. replied him. he gave me a call. my voice sounded hoarse cus i just woke up. (chuckle) we gathered at the mrt & made our way. we caught Christmas Carol. the movie is a cliche one. a simple one. still, i loved it. the animation is so cool, it was like the characters are real humans. (grins) the people in the theatre was so irritating uh. its a cinema for goodness sake, people are trying to watch a movie. after tht, walked around with no direction in mind. haa. sara had to go off so the rest of us made our way to yishun back. window-shopped with dewi, ifah & farhan. then walked home with dewi.

got home and got glued to my sit in front of the laptop's screen & had a movie marathon of my own. watched 'chocolate' & 'kuch kuch hota hai'. Jeeja sure knows how to kick ass. I almost cried at the ending of 'kuch kuch hota hai' but i didnt. haha. bestie, i nvr cry! wee~

ok. so, currently, sister is lovesick. (laughs) i really need to get her some love pills or something of that sort if any exist or im gonna go crazy being in the same room with her hearing her go,'oh jacob.....oh jacob....'.hehehe.

BESTIE! quick online la....i neeeeed someone to shout at!

NEW MOON!

love, irna.

i'm missing you.

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last night

RED CAMP 6

it was simply awesome though i only went for the 2nd & 3rd day, i didnt feel like i missed out a lot. i really had a fun time with ariff, daniel, cindy, farhan, sara, dewi and hamizah. all the people there were friendly. the emcee(s) & SLs were a great bunch of people. the events organised went on pretty smoothly. we made a lot of friends there. i have to thank farhan for inviting me to come. and also, i got to spend a whole day with ariff before he go off.

2nd day
gathered at mrt and off to ngee ann. each team made a hell lot of noise with their enthusiasm by screaming, shouting and cheering.went to a lot of courses and got the in-sights. it was all really fascinating. i got to try wii, a ping pong game. i vs. cindy. ariff stood on my side while daniel was on cindy's side. and yes, i won. hee.it was fun. i tried to catch up on the cheers as i was new. the engineering competition where we had to build something, that was chaotic. we didnt win but it was fun making it. daniel and his ideas every minute. (laughs)

i got to partner ariff for the mass dance, i had fun dancing with him n laughing at his action of a lady by softening his hands. there was this hyperactive guy that joined our clan. he is one funny+creepy guy. too enthusiastic, i must say. word of that day: WILD. (laughs) the cast of Polo Boys & First Class came. those who got to answer the right question, gets a hug from the one who asked the question. oh how i wish.. (grins) ended the camp around 9plus for that day and off home.

3rd day
i was the first to reach mrt. farhan lied to dewi that he wasnt coming so i got lied at too, technically. but he suddenly came out of nowhere to me and dewi. once gathered, off to ngee ann.sat at the cafe while waiting for daniel & cindy.northlanders were late, as usual. northlanders are never punctual. a motto me, knowles and fox created for northlanders.i texted ariff a combined message with everyone's well wishes who was with me at that time.

we finished learning the mass dance earlier in the day.we played both indoor and outdoor activities. the indoor activities were very fun. played games like blow wind blow and a game where we were in a circle facing on the inside and all of us had to face outside. outdoor activities- there was one where we need to swing across and land. i couldnt land cus i couldnt get my feet off but sara,farhan,knowles & fox were there to catch me.another activity was to cross over this bridge that wasnt stable. a klutz i am who has balancing problems, i had a hard time but the whole team were by the side of the bridge ready to catch me if i got off balance.

we made a lot of new friends.a lot of people asked for our numbers. i was confused by the time i checked my hp cus there were a lot of missed calls of numbers i dont know but i got everything sort out by asking their names. i got close to a girl, ada, yesterday. she's really sweet & who knew we actually already knew each other from the NE ambassadors course. i have to apologise cus i dont recognise people's faces easily but i appreciate tht you remembered my face. (grins)

another thing with me is that when i walk, i dont look at people's face so even if i know a person that i happen to walk pass, i'll just walk and not look. but yesterday when it was dinnertime, knowles, fox and i got ready for the zoukout, we were otw back to our place from the ladies when a guy suddenly shouted my name from behind. it was Hariz! i was so happy to see him, and so was Dewi.so yeah, back in contact with him now. Nasrulhaq, where are you?

the final four for Singapore Idol came.im not really a big fan for this season but they sung well. Sezairi's a very funny and supporting guy. he danced to single ladies."don't make fun of beyonce?"haha.hilarious. and he chose Vikings for his favourite tribe. ohh yeah! hee it was really fun dancing with Farhan the mass dance. clap clap~ slap slap~ we also broke two records. 1) the most number of people dancing to the hokey-pokey for 5 minutes. 2) the most number of people who has a lollipop in their mouths for 3 minutes. yay us!all of us got a chop from the SLs cus we need it to enter Zoukout. Zoukout was awesome. there was this performance with drums and all, the beat was great. then came a DJ and thts the part all of us were waiting for. danced non-stop. had a great time.

what made my day was that ariff called.he called just in time cus we just ended Zoukout and was just talking and taking pictures. it was his voice that i yearned for and i got it at the end of the 'day'. what better way to end the day right? (grins) and i also got to talk to Saifuddin.miss that dude. so, rode shutter bus then the mrt. oh, farhan..fox..knowles.. let's not tell anyone about my misguide eh? i so paiseh lah.. its only for you guys' eyes eh. (covers face)

i'm aching everywhere & i'll just wait for the pictures @ facebook.
hope you readers are having a fun holiday so far.

love, irna.

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